I have been a pagan on and off for the last six years. I will have what I call “freak out” moments and I run back to my previous christianpath. This will usually happen in the fall. I don’t know why this is, but it happens.
Every spring something stir inside me and I end up back on my pagan journey. The wheel turns and I get right back on it. I am determined to stay on my pagan path. This is where I feel most at peace. I feel deeply connected to the Goddess and I get excited when I think about exploring our relationship. This is a new feeling. I never really had a relationship with the Goddess. I always felt more contact to God. I always felt protected and loved by God. I just never felt that from the Goddess. This has changed in the last couple of months.
I find myself reaching for her in my time of need or to thank her in my time of peace. I turn to her for advice and I seek out her comfort. I am so thankful for my developing relationship with the Goddess. I am excited to continue to know her and to worship her.
Will it change again in the fall? I really hope it doesn’t. I’m taking this time to plant my feet in the soil and pray my feet stay planted in the hands of the Goddess.